9/3/19
Lately I’ve been feeling very emotional…for good reason.
Last week two of my son’s friends died in a plane crash.
They were only 22 years young with such promise and immense lust for life.
Most days we all hear of people who have died…strangers to us, family to others.
I don’t know about you but I get choked up when I think of my own death.
Recently I had an issue and believed I was on my death bed as I writhed with unbearable pain.
Perhaps I overreacted…I’m still here.
In the aftermath, I thought of my boys, my husband, my family, my friends, my life.
I always wonder if I am growing in the way I am meant.
I’m not going to lie, it’s easy for me to default to sadness and fear.
And when I love deeply...Hello Vulnerability!
I have to avoid the news as much as possible because it negatively affects my mood.
I work really hard to stay in the present where in this very moment I am truly safe, loved, fed, clothed, healthy, writing, creating.
(Unlike the hurricane victims in the Bahamas. See what I mean about the news!)
Lately I’ve been contemplating even more - what is deeply important to me.
I am so deeply grateful for my health. I get to walk in nature and photograph, listen to birds, feel the wind, see the sky.
I am so grateful for my family and friends who have walked with me on my journey…and still do.
I am so grateful for ALL the people on earth right now as I get to look at them and reflect (not compare) what it is in them that I admire or not.
In this awareness I see myself more clearly…who I am and how I can contribute to make the world even better.
After my health issue, I’ve rebooted my attitude to ‘I get to’ instead of ‘I have to’ when faced with things I’d rather not do.
I infuse myself with daily gratitude and as I’m getting older, more now than ever.
And so…with the sudden death of my son’s young friends…I am saddened and reminded once again how fortunate I am to be here on this earth through all the good, bad and ugly.
For one day my journey here will be over, and yours.
I pray daily for the families of my son’s friends and others who need help and hope.
At the end of the day…we ALL face challenges…ALL of Us.
Thank you everyone for being here.
Afterall…we are in this together.
